Desiree's Baby
As
the day was pleasant, Madame Valmonde drove over to L'Abri to see Desiree and
the baby.
It
made her laugh to think of Desiree with a baby. Why, it seemed but yesterday
that Desiree was little more than a baby herself; when Monsieur in riding
through the gateway of Valmonde had found her lying asleep in the shadow of the
big stone pillar.
The
little one awoke in his arms and began to cry for "Dada." That was as
much as she could do or say. Some people thought she might have strayed there
of her own accord, for she was of the toddling age. The prevailing belief was
that she had been purposely left by a party of Texans, whose
canvas-covered wagon, late in the day, had crossed the ferry that Coton Mais
kept, just below the plantation. In time Madame Valmonde abandoned every
speculation but the one that Desiree had been sent to her by a beneficent
Providence to be the child of her affection, seeing that she was without child
of the flesh. For the girl grew to be beautiful and gentle, affectionate and
sincere,--the idol of Valmonde.
It
was no wonder, when she stood one day against the stone pillar in whose shadow
she had lain asleep, eighteen years before, that Armand Aubigny riding by and
seeing her there, had fallen in love with her. That was the way all the
Aubignys fell in love, as if struck by a pistol shot. The wonder was that he
had not loved her before; for he had known her since his father brought him
home from Paris, a boy of eight, after his mother died there. The passion that
awoke in him that day, when he saw her at the gate, swept along like an
avalanche, or like a prairie fire, or like anything that drives headlong over
all obstacles.
Monsieur
Valmonde grew practical and wanted things well considered: that is, the girl's
obscure origin. Armand looked into her eyes and did not care. He was reminded
that she was nameless. What did it matter about a name when he could give her
one of the oldest and proudest in Louisiana? He ordered the corbeille from
Paris, and contained himself with what patience he could until it arrived; then
they were married.
Madame
Valmonde had not seen Desiree and the baby for four weeks. When she reached
L'Abri she shuddered at the first sight of it, as she always did. It was a sad
looking place, which for many years had not known the gentle presence of a
mistress, old Monsieur Aubigny having married and buried his wife in France,
and she having loved her own land too well ever to leave it. The roof came down
steep and black like a cowl, reaching out beyond the wide galleries that
encircled the yellow stuccoed house. Big, solemn oaks
grew close to it, and their thick-leaved, far-reaching branches shadowed it
like a pall. Young Aubigny's rule was a strict one, too, and under it his negroes had forgotten how to be gay, as they had been during
the old master's easy-going and indulgent lifetime.
The
young mother was recovering slowly, and lay full
length, in her soft white muslins and laces, upon a couch. The baby was beside
her, upon her arm, where he had fallen asleep, at her breast. The yellow nurse
woman sat beside a window fanning herself.
Madame
Valmonde bent her portly figure over Desiree and kissed her, holding her an instant
tenderly in her arms. Then she turned to the child.
"This
is not the baby!" she exclaimed, in startled tones. French was the
language spoken at Valmonde in those days.
"I
knew you would be astonished," laughed Desiree, "at the way he has
grown. The little cochon de lait! Look at his legs, mamma, and his hands and
fingernails,--real finger-nails. Zandrine had to cut
them this morning. Isn't it true, Zandrine?"
The
woman bowed her turbaned head majestically, "Mais si, Madame."
"And
the way he cries," went on Desiree, "is
deafening. Armand heard him the other day as far away as La Blanche's
cabin."
Madame
Valmonde had never removed her eyes from the child. She lifted it and walked
with it over to the window that was lightest. She scanned the baby narrowly, then looked as searchingly at Zandrine, whose face was
turned to gaze across the fields.
"Yes,
the child has grown, has changed," said Madame Valmonde, slowly, as she
replaced it beside its mother. "What does Armand say?"
Desiree's
face became suffused with a glow that was happiness itself.
"Oh,
Armand is the proudest father in the parish, I believe, chiefly because it is a
boy, to bear his name; though he says not,--that he
would have loved a girl as well. But I know it isn't true. I know he says that
to please me. And mamma," she added, drawing Madame Valmonde's head down
to her, and speaking in a whisper, "he hasn't punished one of them--not
one of them--since baby is born. Even Negrillon, who pretended to have burnt
his leg that he might rest from work--he only laughed, and said Negrillon was a great scamp. oh,
mamma, I'm so happy; it frightens me."
What
Desiree said was true. Marriage, and later the birth of his son had softened
Armand Aubigny's imperious and exacting nature greatly. This was what made the
gentle Desiree so happy, for she loved him desperately. When he frowned she
trembled, but loved him. When he smiled, she asked no greater blessing of God.
But Armand's dark, handsome face had not often been disfigured by frowns since
the day he fell in love with her.
When
the baby was about three months old, Desiree awoke one day to the conviction
that there was something in the air menacing her peace. It was at first too
subtle to grasp. It had only been a disquieting suggestion; an air of mystery
among the blacks; unexpected visits from far-off
neighbors who could hardly account for their coming. Then a
strange, an awful change in her husband's manner, which she dared not ask him
to explain. When he spoke to her, it was with averted eyes, from which
the old love-light seemed to have gone out. He absented himself from home; and
when there, avoided her presence and that of her child, without excuse. And the
very spirit of Satan seemed suddenly to take hold of him in his dealings with
the slaves. Desiree was miserable enough to die.
She
sat in her room, one hot afternoon, in her peignoir, listlessly drawing through
her fingers the strands of her long, silky brown hair that hung about her
shoulders. The baby, half naked, lay asleep upon her own great mahogany bed,
that was like a sumptuous throne, with its satin-lined
half-canopy. One of La Blanche's little quadroon boys--half naked too--stood
fanning the child slowly with a fan of peacock feathers. Desiree's eyes had
been fixed absently and sadly upon the baby, while she was striving to
penetrate the threatening mist that she felt closing about her. She looked from
her child to the boy who stood beside him, and back again;
over and over. "Ah!" It was a cry that she could not help; which she
was not conscious of having uttered. The blood turned like ice in her veins,
and a clammy moisture gathered upon her face.
She
tried to speak to the little quadroon boy; but no sound would come, at first.
When he heard his name uttered, he looked up, and his mistress was pointing to
the door. He laid aside the great, soft fan, and obediently stole away, over
the polished floor, on his bare tiptoes.
She
stayed motionless, with gaze riveted upon her child, and her face the picture
of fright.
Presently
her husband entered the room, and without noticing her, went to a table and
began to search among some papers which covered it.
"Armand,"
she called to him, in a voice which must have stabbed
him, if he was human. But he did not notice. "Armand," she said
again. Then she rose and tottered towards him. "Armand," she panted
once more, clutching his arm, "look at our child. What does it mean? tell me."
He
coldly but gently loosened her fingers from about his arm and thrust the hand
away from him. "Tell me what it means!" she cried despairingly.
"It
means," he answered lightly, "that the child is not white; it means
that you are not white."
A
quick conception of all that this accusation meant for her nerved her with
unwonted courage to deny it. "It is a lie; it is not true, I am white!
Look at my hair, it is brown; and my eyes are gray, Armand, you know they are
gray. And my skin is fair," seizing his wrist. "Look at my hand;
whiter than yours, Armand," she laughed hysterically.
"As
white as La Blanche's," he returned cruelly; and went away leaving her
alone with their child.
When
she could hold a pen in her hand, she sent a despairing letter to Madame
Valmonde.
"My
mother, they tell me I am not white. Armand has told me I am not white. For
God's sake tell them it is not true. You must know it is not true. I shall die.
I must die. I cannot be so unhappy, and live."
The
answer that came was brief:
"My
own Desiree: Come home to Valmonde; back to your mother who loves you. Come
with your child."
When
the letter reached Desiree she went with it to her husband's study, and laid it
open upon the desk before which he sat. She was like a stone image: silent,
white, motionless after she placed it there.
In
silence he ran his cold eyes over the written words.
He
said nothing. "Shall I go, Armand?" she asked in tones sharp with
agonized suspense.
"Yes,
go."
"Do
you want me to go?"
"Yes,
I want you to go."
He
thought Almighty God had dealt cruelly and unjustly with him; and felt,
somehow, that he was paying Him back in kind when he stabbed thus into his
wife's soul. Moreover he no longer loved her, because of the unconscious injury
she had brought upon his home and his name.
She
turned away like one stunned by a blow, and walked slowly towards the door,
hoping he would call her back.
"Good-by,
Armand," she moaned.
He
did not answer her. That was his last blow at fate.
Desiree
went in search of her child. Zandrine was pacing the sombre gallery with it.
She took the little one from the nurse's arms with no word of explanation, and
descending the steps, walked away, under the live-oak branches.
It
was an October afternoon; the sun was just sinking. Out in the still fields the
negroes were picking cotton.
Desiree
had not changed the thin white garment nor the slippers which
she wore. Her hair was uncovered and the sun's rays brought a golden gleam from
its brown meshes. She did not take the broad, beaten road
which led to the far-off plantation of Valmonde. She walked across a deserted
field, where the stubble bruised her tender feet, so delicately shod, and tore
her thin gown to shreds.
She
disappeared among the reeds and willows that grew thick along the banks of the
deep, sluggish bayou; and she did not come back again.
Some
weeks later there was a curious scene enacted at L'Abri. In the centre of the
smoothly swept back yard was a great bonfire. Armand Aubigny sat in the wide
hallway that commanded a view of the spectacle; and it was he who dealt out to
a half dozen negroes the material which kept this fire
ablaze.
A
graceful cradle of willow, with all its dainty furbishings, was laid upon the
pyre, which had already been fed with the richness of a priceless layette. Then
there were silk gowns, and velvet and satin ones added to these; laces, too,
and embroideries; bonnets and gloves; for the corbeille had been of rare
quality.
The
last thing to go was a tiny bundle of letters; innocent little scribblings that
Desiree had sent to him during the days of their espousal. There was the
remnant of one back in the drawer from which he took them. But it was not
Desiree's; it was part of an old letter from his mother to his father. He read
it. She was thanking God for the blessing of her husband's love:--
"But
above all," she wrote, "night and day, I thank the good God for
having so arranged our lives that our dear Armand will never know that his
mother, who adores him, belongs to the race that is cursed with the brand of
slavery."