1. Highlight 5 vocabulary words that you do
not know and write the definition in the margin. Label each with a (V).
2.
Ask 5 questions in the margins. Label each with a (?)
3.
React to 5 events in the text. Label each reaction with a (*).
4.
Make 5 connections to the text, text-to-self á text-to-text á
text-to-world. Label each with a ©
5. Highlight 5 quotes that reveal
characterization. Label each with a
(0+<). Tell what each reveals.
Morning sun glinted through the trees as Alicia and I
walked away from Antonio's grave. I refused to look back as we walked north
toward the Mexican border more than two hundred kilometers away. Such a journey
frightened me, but what other choice did we have? I no longer felt safe in any
canton or pueblo. I would rather
have waited until dark to walk, but I was anxious to get away from this place
where Antonio had died. Inside of me I longed to weep and wake up in Mami's
arms and hear her tell me that this was only a bad dream, but for Alicia's sake
I (105) forced myself to be strong.
We didn't walk fast, but all day and into the next
night we followed narrow walking trails, stopping only to pick cherries, eat
roots, and drink water when we crossed streams. Blisters on our feet made us
limp, and we stumbled with weariness. Finally, late the next night, Alicia could
walk no farther and I found a thick patch of shrubs to sleep under. Our
stomachs ached from hunger, but that didn't keep us from sleep.
For the next three days we followed rocky foot trails
through the rolling hills, trying to walk mostly at night. We ate only berries
and plant roots, and slept during the day. I tried many times to coax words
from Alicia, but she refused to speak. Whenever we stopped, she sat as if in a
trance while I brushed her hair and hummed familiar songs to her.
We met
no one until the fourth day of our journey. Early, before the sun rose, I heard
a woman's voice ahead of us crying out weakly in Quiche, "Help! Please,
someone help me!"
Thinking that this might be a military trap grabbed
Alicia and was about to run when I paused to listen more closely.
"Help me. Please!" the female voice called
again.
I gripped Alicia's hand tightly and moved forward.
There on the ground near the trail, I found a young pregnant woman lying
stretched out on top of a corte. Her stomach bulged like a huge melon, and she
wore no clothes below her fat waist. Her bare legs and bent knees were spread
wide. From where I stood, I heard her heavy breathing and saw her face twisted
in pain and dripping sweat.
"Please help," the woman gasped, noticing
me. Even as she spoke, she grimaced with pain and held to her round stomach.
"What can I do?" I asked, approaching her
and kneeling. "I've never helped anyone give birth before."
"Catch the baby," she cried.
Obediently I kneeled between her legs, but I still wasn't
sure what to do. In our canton, young, girls learned many things-to weave, to
carry water, to grind corn, to sweep dirt floors, and to make tortillas. We
helped our mothers with many chores, but ánot with birth. That was the job of
the midwives, and not (107) even the men were allowed to help.
In our canton we would hide with other children in
nearby bushes while the midwives helped our mothers give birth. We giggled and
stared with wide eyes, imagining the terrible things that made our mothers
scream and grunt. Sometimes, we whispered to each other, guessing what was
happening. The boys were mean and said they were killing a pig.
The
woman lying in front of me relaxed for a few minutes as if her pain had
disappeared, then again she stiffenedá and grunted and cried out in pain.
Desperately I asked, "What hurts?" But the woman couldn't answer.
When the pain left her the next time, the woman said,
"Soon. Soon."
I stared.
How could a baby be born through such a small opening? Still I waited. Each
time the woman stiffened, she screamed louder until I believed she was dying.
But finally she screamed, "It's coming! It's coming!"
I looked and saw the baby trying to push out from
between her legs. It frightened me. It was like her (108) stomach or intestines
coming out. I looked back and saw Alicia watching, her eyes and mouth opened
wide. There wasn't time to explain to her what was happening, but I think maybe
she thought she was watching another death.
Again the woman grunted and held to her thighs. She
strained harder and gasped deeply, as if trying to catch her breath. Sweat
dripped from her face in huge drops. The bulge grew larger, like something
arriving from a different world. The baby looked like a ball pushing out. Now
the woman panted fast. "Catch it," she shouted.
Trembling, I reached out my hands. Suddenly the head
of the baby popped our, then one shoulder, and then the next. With each grunt
the baby slid farther into my hands. After the chest and stomach squeezed out,
I helped pull. Slowly the legs slid from the mother, and suddenly I found
myself holding the whole baby, a baby girl. Bloody birth fluids and white paste
covered the wrinkled little body, and a long twisted cord ran from between the
mother's legs and attached to the baby's stomach. (109)
"What do I do?" I pleaded. "She isn't breathing.Ó
The woman forced her head up and looked. ''Clean her
mouth with your finger," she grunted.
Afraid the baby was already dead, I ran my finger through
its mouth. My finger pulled out thick slime, but still the baby didn't breathe.
I wasn't surprised. The baby appeared dead from the beginning; like the dead
lambs our sheep aborted in the fields.
"Hold
her upside down and hit her backside," the mother grunted.
I lifted the slippery baby up by its ankles, afraid I
might drop it. Awkwardly I swatted its back and bot tom. Still it hung
motionless, but suddenly it gasped and a loud urgent cry pierced the air.
I
jumped, nearly dropping the baby. Nervous fear and relief made me laugh.
"What now?" I asked.
Again
the woman strained to raise her head. "Cut the cord," she whispered,
her voice weaker. "And tie a knot, or the baby will bleed to death.''
I looked around me. "How do I cut the cord?"
I asked.
The
mother was too tired to answer me. I looked (110) around. Alicia at quietly,
watching me with big eyes. I laid the crying baby on the corte between the
mother's legs, and then stood. What could I use to cut the cord if I had no
machete?
All I could find was some maguey a broad-leaf cactus.
I broke off a stiff leaf, careful not to cut myself with the sharp ragged edge,
and quickly returned to the mother, who had closed her eyes but still breathed
fast like a tired cow.
The baby cried with such a loud voice that I feared
soldiers would hear us. Using the jagged maguey leaf, I sliced through the
cord. Blood leaked from both cut ends, so I pinched the mother's end while I
tried to knot the baby's cord. It was hard, because the cord kept sipping from
my shaking fingers, but finally I made a knot and reached down with my mouth to
bite onto the bloody end to pull it even tighter.
After I had knotted the mother's cord the same way, I
picked up the baby and laid it against the mother's chest. The tired woman
opened her eyes and stared weakly but couldn't lift her arms to hold her baby.
Her face was pale and she looked ill.
The baby still (111) screamed; so I opened the mother's huipil and
placed the baby's mouth against the nipple of her swollen breast. The baby
wanted to keep crying, but when it felt the nipple against its lips, it caught
its breath and began to suck.
I sat beside the exhausted mother and held the
uncleaned baby as it nursed. The child was all wrinkled and smeared with blood,
birth fluids, and white sticky paste, but still she was beautiful. The magic of
what I had witnessed robbed me of my breath. It both frightened and thrilled
me. At a time of so much death, new life had been born.
The baby nursed briefly but then cried loudly once
again. I forced her mouth back against the mother's swollen breast, but she
turned stubbornly away from the nipple and screamed even louder, her piercing
wails like a squealing rabbit alerting a hawk. The hawks that I feared wore uniforms
and carried guns.
I wanted to ask the mother what I should do with her
baby, but she had fallen unconscious. Her breathing was shallow. I glanced
fearfully over my shoulder. There across the valley, crossing a sloping field a
(112) kilometer away, walked forty or fifty soldiers in uniform, single file.
They couldn't hear the baby crying yet, but their trail would soon lead them
past the mother, who lay still in the grass as if dead.
I dared not think what soldiers might do to a half
naked woman and a baby. "Soldiers are coming," I whispered loudly,
glancing desperately over my shoulder and then back down at the motionless
mother. 'I, wanted to panic and hide, but I called Alicia to my side and placed
the screaming baby in her arms. "Hold her,"
I
ordered. ''I need to hide the mother."
Obediently Alicia held the baby and watched as l
grabbed the mother's wrists and dragged her deeper into the trees to where the
brush would hide her body from the trail. Alicia followed us, holding the
crying baby.
I shook
the woman. "What should I do with your baby?" I begged.
The
woman's head fell to the side. I shook her again but she refused to wake up.
Frantically I looked around; I couldn't just leave the crying baby beside her.
The soldiers would soon arrive. (113)
I pulled off the woman's huipil and wrapped it around
the baby as a blanket. I spread her dark corte over her to help hide her and to
protect her from the mosquitoes and flies that swarmed around us in the morning
air. I feared áshe was dying, but I could do nothing more to help her. There
was no water or food to leave with her, and the soldiers walked closer with
each second that passed. I needed to escape.
I took the crying infant from Alicia, glanced one last
time at the unconscious mother, then rushed into the forest away from the
approaching soldiers. I ran as fast as I could, carrying the baby and holding
Alicia's hand. In some places I crossed trails, but dared not follow them. At
times the trees thinned and we were forced to walk out into the open. Those
times terrified me. Finally I stopped to catch my breath with the baby still
screaming urgently in my arms.
I held the crying baby up to look into its eyes.
"Be quiet, little baby!" I said loudly "I'm trying to save your
life. If you want to live, then help me. I'm not your mother, and life isn't
always kind."
I knew the baby didn't understand my words, but it (114)
hiccupped and stopped crying to look at me. It seemed impossible to me, as I
stared at the baby, to think that soldiers, had begun their lives so small,
vulnerable, and innocent. What was it that corrupted humans so?
I brought the baby gently to my chest and rocked it
and quietly sang a song Mami one sang to me.
Hush baby,
Don't cry now.
Birds sing,
Church bells ring.
Hush baby,
Don't be sad.
Never fear
Mami's near.
As I sang, the baby's urgent screams faded into fitful
whimpers and she fell asleep on my shoulder. I held my breath; the soldiers
could have been anywhere. Slowly I walked, cradling the baby in my arms and
humming quietly. Alicia held to my
corte and followed me. (115)
The morning sun had climbed high above .us, heating
the air and bringing thick swarms of mosquitoes. I shooed them from the baby's
face. When she woke again, the baby didn't look well. She weighed heavy in my
arms, listless and too weak to cry. I walked in circles, tracing my finger
gently over the infant's tiny cheeks and wondering what I should do. The baby
needed to nurse from its mother, but I doubted the mother still lived, and
soldiers most likely surrounded her.
We walked on until we came to a small stream, where I
wet the edge of my huipil. Carefully I dripped water into the baby's mouth. She
spit the water out and turned her head stubbornly to the side. Again I tried. Finally
I lifted the baby and looked into her face again, saying, "Listen to me,
little baby. If you love us, you'll live. If you don't, you'll die. Do what you
want, but decide quickly, because my sister, Alicia, she needs help, too."
Well, the baby must have loved us. She started sucking
on my knuckle and let me squeeze water down my finger into her mouth. Again and
again I dipped (116) the edge of my
huipil into the stream and squeezed more water until the baby slept once again.
I knew the baby needed more than water to survive, but
it was all I had to offer her. I continued walking until the forest opened onto
a bare hillside overlooking a big open valley. Spread out below me was a large
pueblo I had never seen before.
This pueblo was much like the one I had walked to for market. The
central plaza looked like the middle of a big nest from the hillside.
Surrounding the plaza were a big municipal building, a school; a Catholic
church, an outdoor marketplace, and the many tiendas, which were small stores
containing little more than tables protected by plastic tarps or makeshift
wooden roofs. Rows of brown adobe homes spread in every direction, red tile or
rusted steel roofing protecting each f them from the weather.
It was market day. People crowded the streets, and the
market stalls were piled high with fruit and other goods. Bells rang out from
the Catholic Church, announcing the beginning of mass to the many people in the
plaza. The sight of the pueblo surprised me. (117)
These
people went about life as if there were no danger. Was this pueblo somehow
different from our canton? Alicia cowered and pulled away from me at the sight
of the buildings.
I had thought of entering the pueblo with Alicia and
the baby, but perhaps that wasn't wise. I was a stranger. If there were
soldiers, what would they think of a strange girl entering the pueblo with a
scared little girl and a newborn, nearly dead baby? Maybe some soldier would recognize
me.
I
stood on the hill above the pueblo, .my stomach churning with indecision. The
baby needed help and so did her mother. Maybe in the market I could find some
goat's milk for the baby. She slept too soundly in my arms. I thought of
something that Manuel had told me once. He said, "Gabriela, decisions
aren't right or wrong when you make them. It's what you do with your decisions
that make them right or wrong."
At the edge of the pueblo I decided to leave Alicia alone
with the baby for a short time so that I could enter the market. Quickly, I
would find milk for the baby and help for the mother, then immediately return (118)
before the baby woke up.
We
walked until only a stand of trees separated us from the nearest homes. I found a thick clump of shrubs for Alicia
to hide beneath. "If the baby cries; rock her gently," I told Alicia.'
"Don't leave this hiding place for any reason."
Alicia refused to answer or nod, but she held the
sleeping baby tightly in her arms.
"I'll be right back," I promised. Then I
turned and ran into the pueblo.
As I neared the plaza, the sound of music and marimbas
filled the air Papi had always played marimbas, and those familiar sounds
flooded my mind with memories. All around me were families, animals, the sounds
of children playing, d the smell of cooking. For a moment I wanted to forget
everything that had happened. I wanted to begin life over as if no one had
died. But even as I daydreamed, I knew Alicia held the sick baby and waited for
me.
I rushed across the plaza to the market where I found
row after row of vendors bartering their goods. Never had I seen so much food.
Carts of colorful fruits (119) and vegetables were piled high near bins bursting
with coffee beans, rice, or com. Fresh meats hung from hooks, and one stand
even sold bottled drinks and chocolates. Some vendors sold live animals:
chickens, rabbits, goats, and squawking parrots. I headed toward the goats; back
in our canton I had seen grandmothers feed goat's milk to babies when their
mothers fell ill.
As I approached, the vendors stared with surprise at
the dirty ghost that walked toward them with tangled hair, a soiled and bloody
huipil, and a dirty corte. I knew it áwas curiosity and not unkindness that
made them stare. One vendor motioned for me to come closer.
Hesitantly, I approached, and he treated me
respectfully, offering me some tortillas and a piece of chicken. Another vendor
handed me a bottle of Coca Cola. I stuffed the food into my mouth and
drank faster than a girl should. One man gave me two oranges, and I hid them
inside my huipil for Alicia. As I chewed, I explained in Quiche to the man with
the goats, "I lost my mother, and my baby sister needs milk." That
was the nearest l dared come to the truth.
The man gave me a puzzled look, and when he (120) spoke
I realized that he was Ixil and didn't speak Quiche. Hesitantly, I spoke a
little Spanish, but he didn't understand that either, so I pointed to a small
gourd he had filled with milk. He hesitated, but then handed me the milk with a
kind smile. I nodded my thanks and carried the gourd carefully back across the
plaza.
Still I
trusted no one. Suddenly a soft touch on my shoulder made me jump. I turned to
find an old nun looking at me. Deep wrinkles creased the woman's face. Her skin
was shriveled like a dried orange, and her shoulders sagged as if under some invisible
load. She smiled at me, her squinting eyes glowing with curiosity and kindness.
"Hello, I'm Mother Lopez," she said in Spanish.
I had
seen soldiers dress as priests, but never as nuns. No soldier could have faked
such a look of kindness. Cautiously l spoke in Spanish "My name is
Gabriela," I said.
''You speak Spanish well for an India," the nun
said.
"You must help me," I said. "This
morning my little sister and I found a mother giving birth alone in the (121) countryside.
I helped her, but then because there were soldiers nearby, I had to hide the
mother and we brought the baby here. My little sister is outside the pueblo,
hiding with the baby."
The nun nodded. ''Show me where they are."
As the nun began to follow me, gunshots echoed loudly
in the air. Then we heard screaming and looked around. From the narrow side
streets, soldiers suddenly appeared, firing their rifles into the air and
herding people toward the center of the plaza .As we watched, an Ixil husband
and wife ignored the soldier's commands and ran past them, trying to escape.
Two soldiers aimed their rifles and fired. The couple stumbled and then fell lifeless
to the ground, their bodies suddenly still.
"Come with me," the nun shouted, grabbing my
hand and spilling the gourd of milk on the ground. "Let's go to the
church."
"I must go to my sister," I shouted back,
twisting my hand free and running back down an empty alley.
Suddenly more soldiers appeared ahead of me, firing
their rifles recklessly as they came. I wanted only to (122) escape, so I
returned to the plaza and ran in a different direction, but the soldiers were
everywhere, completely surrounding us.
Without
thinking, I ran across the plaza to a single large machichi tree thick with
branches and leaves. I ignored all that happened around e as I reached up and
began climbing,
Below
me, people ran in every direction like scared cattle. Soldiers surrounded everyone.
I climbed faster. In a forest it was easy to hide in a tree surrounded by other
trees, but the machichi tree in the plaza stood alone, a single tree surrounded
by buildings, streets, frightened people, and dangerous soldiers. When I reached
the upper branches, I peeked down through the thick leaves and saw soldiers.
They shouted and cursed and fired their rifles as they herded the terrified
people. I feared that some of the bullets they fired recklessly into the air
might hit me.
Soon the ugly and dangerous men surrounded not only
the people of the pueblo but also the tree I had climbed. I, too, was a
prisoner. (123)